Are you strong?

 

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That night I fall asleep on the grass. It was still warm from a hot day.

There were hundred of ants on the ground. If I’ve stopped breathing I could hear ants walking. They were producing rhythm that never stopped. Over and over repeating itself. It was driving me crazy, but yet after few minutes I could freely fly from the grass into my dreams..

 I dreamed about me, only I was big and strong. I was a lion..

Finally I’ve had a good hair 🙂

Adapting to my new body I started to run. Oh it was so magnificent. Those big paws just flaunting through the grass. Looking so far away, but still be so small. Feeling all scents in a big wet nose..

It was morning but I couldn’t let go. I never wanted to go back. Being a lion is everything to me now. I’ve decided to stay. So I lay down again. My big eyes couldn’t stop watching me in my thoughts. There was I, standing all alone. I was weak and so small. It’s better to be a lion cause no one can hurt me..

Girl had fall down on her knees. Her hands were covering her head. As a lion I could still felt compassion for that girl. I knew that I have to go back, but it was so hard to let go. I knew that dream isn’t my real home, still I was more understood here. As the time was crawling I realize there was connection between lion and the girl. I was that girl. I needed me cause I was both.

I was girl with a lions heart. A girl that needed her lion as much as lion needed that girl.

He would gave me strength and I would set him free.

Two houses

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Deep deep deep in the forest there were two houses.

They were always empty and happy. Never knowing how it is to have someone to take care of you. But one day house with a blue door offered to a little rabbit a place to rest, after digging all day in searching for carrots. Rabbit started to jump like crazy. He was so happy.

Don’t worry house I will take care of you- said rabbit. House opened blue door and let rabbit in. After watching what happened, the other house began to complain. It didn’t understand why house next to him need someone dirty as rabbit. For days house with blue door tried to convince other house to take in squirrel. She needed a shelter after people tore down her tree. House was stubborn.

No! she will destroy my inside interior- said house. So squirrel went inside a house with blue door. Three of them were really happy. Always singing and smiling. Often they wanted to talk to the other house but the house kept quiet.

And so the winter came. It was freezing outside. Rabbit and squirrel started to collect firewood so that interior get warmth they needed to spend night in. House next to them was still very quiet. It started to worry rabbit so much that he couldn’t sleep very well that night.

Next morning he stood in front of the door of the stubborn house. Open! Come on don’t be so stubborn. I will be cleaner I promise. – said rabbit, but house not said a word. When night came into the forest, strong winter wind started blowing. House with blue door stand the whole time firmly on his feet because he was warm enough and filled with love.

Other house vanished.Wind destroyed the house entirely.

So stubborn and proud, but so lonely and weak…

Waiting

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So funny that we wait for everything in our lives.

As a child I waited for cartoon to begin in the morning. What a patient person was I then.. When I grew up a little, classroom became my second home, but my favorite time was always recess between lectures. When the puberty hit me big time, I couldn’t see clearly..

That hot sunny day I was waiting for a boy. I thought he will come. As the seconds were climbing on my watch, patient person in me was saying goodbye. Time became my enemy number one. My heart was always hoping that sun will hide behind the cloud and my eyes will miraculously catch sight of that boy..

He never came as well as the old me. Don’t get me wrong it was a valuable lesson but somehow I could never bring back that patient child who waited in warm bed his favorite cartoon.

As long there is a forest…

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Forest be my salvation

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I need your circulation

To relive my reflection.. of life..

 

I often go into the forest and enjoy this perfect place. It makes you to think clearly. A place where all problems are running away from us. You who are reading this take care of our nature. It is the only thing that keeps us alive. A green monster who breath  🙂

Not betrayal but evolution

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This feeling makes me itchy!

Before I turned 20 years old I was ”Richie rich” with friends. Always smiling and never stop laughing  was our moto. The life was good. All those night’s out and crazy partying were amazing! Then one day reality check knock on my door. It was my mom and her demands to make something of my life. OK! I’ve said. Soon from that moment it becomes the end of one era…

I woke up last night and after six years started thinking to myself where are they? All those people just vanished.

This is what happened before six years ago…

I started working so my free time was limited. I couldn’t make time for all those things I used to do. It was the time where I had to grow up. Friends started acting really weird. Like this is nuts i thought to myself. Only few of them were understanding so they stayed. After I started go to college only two left for me. When I met my true love there was only one left. I thought this is classic betrayal. When I was party animal everybody loved me and cherish me. They didn’t want me to change. But they also changed. Love for them was still in my heart but they weren’t in my life anymore.

So that night after six years I finally realize that we all are changing and that life will throw us in every possible direction.

Important thing is not to feel betrayal but evolution.

Welcome night

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Welcome to all souls out there. I know there are so many of us. I’m  finally starting to write my own blog. There will be no rules, only heart  🙂

As this night go by I’m wishing that I could fly right into this painting. Sometimes all we need is silent beauty for ourselves but sometimes we have to face that the reality is inevitably. So what we can do to make it more inviting like this photo?